The Nature of the Universe - 9/25/10

I believe the nature of the universe is both perfect and pristine. And I truly think that this would reflect itself in our experience as spiritual beings occupying a physical body if we chose for it to, only we don't. And why? Undoubtedly it's because perfection becomes intolerable after awhile. It would be undeniably boring if everything was exactly as it should be, all the time. If there was no disorder, no failure, and no "evil", we would be living in a world without contrast. We would have no framework for our experience because we wouldn't have a comparison to differentiate our experiences from one another. If we were incapable of producing a result that was different from our intention, there would be no POINT in creation. If there wasn't the possibility of not getting what you wanted, there would be no desire, no need, and thus no motivation. All effort would cease and everything would come to an abrupt halt and stay frozen forever because there would be no need to change anything.

Perhaps deep down we're aware of this, and so our world...and the way OF the world....exists simply as a means to PREVENT such a thing from happening. We fail because to succeed would mean to fall in line with the way the Universe actually is, to sync ourselves with the perfection inherent in our being. Therefore, failing is contrary to what actually IS, and thus it's a truly liberating experience. To exert our free will, to proclaim to the cosmos that we have the ability to NOT be what we are, to experience things other than what we choose, this is true freedom....and it's our way of acknowledging the power within that we, in our ignorance, mistake as sin, error, failing, etc.

So, when you truly mess things up, when your life turns to hell or a problem arises that just gets worse, with no end in sight, realize that at some level you've chosen to create things this way as a way of asserting to the Universe that you can do whatever you want, that you can create whatever experience you choose and perpetuate it indefinitely in the safety of your own delusions. If perfection is your true state of being, than imperfection is merely a construct of your mind, an option that, on some level of consciousness, empowers you to create. To decide how you want to experience both yourself and the world, even if it's not in line with your perception of how you want things.

For example, say you want to be a wealthy, successful musician. What you actually want, on a spiritual level, is to WANT to be a wealthy, successful musician. You desire the wanting of that experience. So you unconsciously create circumstances that would foster this desire inside of you, preventing its manifestation because then the charade would be over. You could always be a musician if that was your intent, you have the ability to be and do whatever you choose. And barring the idea that you can instantly become "whatever" through willing it, if your intent is in line with your behavior, you'll take the steps needed in order to become "anything" the old fashioned way (through learning, studying, practising, etc.) I'll go a step further and say that because the Universe is perfect, and your spiritual being is as well, you can become the best version of a musician you can possibly be simply by allowing it to happen. You can slip into Grace whenever you choose, but you'd rather not. You keep pushing it off. Because when you become a master, the games you play with yourself are over. Your potential is lost because you've REACHED your full potential, you are perfection incarnate and thus you remove the possibility of fucking up. And, as I've said, this makes all action, every endeavour, and each experience devoid of merit. Without meaning. Hollow and routine. It would truly be a fate worse than death, and that's why I feel that each of us secretly adores imperfection. We're addicted to our dramas, because however ridiculous they are and however much they seem to make us suffer, they are proof positive of our adamant desire to deny our innate divinity in each and every moment.

And that's a good thing.