Forgotten - 8/6/2008

I haven't heard this song in years, but then it suddenly occurred to me and so I decided to play it for you two since you're the only ones that come here.  It's a song I created a long time ago, shortly after my half-brother Billy died.  I think I may have dedicated it to his memory, but I forgot.  At any rate, it reminds me of a different way of thinking and it pains me to dwell on it because back then, when I wrote this........it felt so much easier to switch perspectives at the drop of a dime.  Everything was so much easier, and thoughts and ideas came to me so readily.  Now it feels like I've been thinking the same things for years, nothing new.....nothing profound, and nothing beautiful.  I'm apathetic about my present mind-set, and what's worse....I don't seem to have the energy to change it.  

You know, as I do believe STONEHENGE told me, I think I need to leave Publix...  While I certainly won't blame it for everything that's wrong with my life, it really does feel like it's holding me back creatively and spiritually.  Whatever happens, once I dig my way out of debt...remind me that I have no love for that place and that I need to get the hell out of there?  Seriously, Tina, Tracy....hit me over the head if you have to.  But this time next year, if I'm not about to put in a two-week notice......come down here and punch me in the face?  kthxbye. 

(updating this page now, in October 2010...I am very disheartened by how I've changed nothing about my life, even though I'm out of debt.  Stonehenge, will I ever listen to you...and to my heart?)